Right from my earliest experiences of the work place I witnessed people in authority who would have no qualms about lying. They would lie for all manner of reasons but mainly to try to cover up their involvement in something. For example, I committed a minor misdemeanor at work once that was written up by the idiot training officer. He told me it was only written up for his own reference and would not be used anywhere else. I discovered several years later that a report of this had indeed found its way into my personnel file. I also saw once an incident where, during a training session, on the new appraisal system (Focus on your failures, or something like that), the head of human resources insisted that anything anyone said in the meeting would remain totally annonymous. Shortly after the meeting I heard the head of human resources speaking to another manager in the corridor, referring to a particularly outspoken individual in the meeting. The two were discussing exactly what was said. So much for being annonymous. I think we've probably all been in situation where someone says something to you like, "Don't breathe a word about this to anyone," etc. It is part of corporate life. Consequently, there are those who seem to lie habitually in the workplace. Those that are so used to doing it they do it probably out of habit and actually, probably believe they are doing no wrong in doing so.
In my own situation there have been so many people who have lied about what has happened to me that there are basically two types of people. They are all liars but can be sub-divided. There are those, like the aforementioned head of human resources that lie in every area of their lives (probably lying to their spouses about their extra-marital affairs) and they can do it easily without betraying any emotions. Then there are those who are normally honourable people. They would not normally lie and they are uncomfortable about lying. This was apparent to me by a young girl who worked in Human Resources in a company I worked for. She was given the task of conducting an exit interview with me when I resigned. She was there trying to present the official stance that I had resigned for no reason, (not the truth, that I had been mobbed by the Senior Management and a few other dick heads who were in on it.) Throughout the interview she fiddled with her fingers nervously and could not look at me. She squirmed all the way through it. Boy would I love to get her on a lie detector or even cross examined by a good brief. There have been others that are so uncomfortable about the whole thing. They know it is not right but are forced to lie. I can only speculate why they persist in lying even though it is against all their principles. No doubt they have been threatened in some way and maybe I was correct about my suspicions in my last post. I have no way of knowing.
All together though it stinks. Those involved must know it stinks. The ends can never justify the means. After all those in the know now must know the world does not work the way we are led to believe it does. They must now know that they cannot ever believe the official versions for happenings like the death of David Kelly or other such things. It must be quite depressing for them for the rest of their lives.
Monday 24 December 2007
Sunday 9 December 2007
Open Investigations
We are supposed to live in a more open society these days. Years ago in the UK, your bosses could write pretty nasty things about you for references and the like and you would never be allowed to see them or challenge them as they were confidential. We now have laws that have been passed so that things like that are now open and there are procedures which you can go through to look at things people have written about you and challenge them, legally, if they cannot be supported. Or at least that's the way it's supposed to be. However, as with all things like this, there are those who find there way around such things. One thing where a company can keep something from you are things that involve ongoing criminal investigations.
Think about this. A company wants to get at an employee. All they have to do is suspect the employee of doing something bad. They can then tell other employees about there suspicions and that they have certain evidence to back up what they are saying and that the employee should keep an eye on them and report any suspicious dealings. Now because this is an ongoing case, everyone in on it is forbidden to talk about it, by law. And since the case is never closed, the rumours can continue. The target never gets convicted of anything but then they are never allowed to clear their name either. There are some very evil people out there believe me and our society is not run how we are led to believe it is.
Think about this. A company wants to get at an employee. All they have to do is suspect the employee of doing something bad. They can then tell other employees about there suspicions and that they have certain evidence to back up what they are saying and that the employee should keep an eye on them and report any suspicious dealings. Now because this is an ongoing case, everyone in on it is forbidden to talk about it, by law. And since the case is never closed, the rumours can continue. The target never gets convicted of anything but then they are never allowed to clear their name either. There are some very evil people out there believe me and our society is not run how we are led to believe it is.
Saturday 27 October 2007
The Innocent Have Nothing to Fear
My mother always said god never pays his debts with money. Well let's just consider some people that have been especially horrible to me over the past few years. I'm not saying, necessarily, that these people deserve what they got, but it does make you wonder:
* The most obvious one is the squash player I've talked about before. He ended up in the slammer for some very serious and sick crimes.
* There was this chap, who I used to work with, who once when I was on a train, did the glaring bit at me. The real serious stares. The same chap then got an interview for a senior position where I was working. When he saw me he had to stifle a snigger and had to turn away. He got the job. I decided to leave the company. Around a month after this jerk had started his new senior job he was told he was going to be made redundant. You'd need a heart of stone not to laugh.
* There was a Head of Human Resources who was particularly unpleasant to me. A few weeks after I left the company he was marched off the premises by security guards. No one seems to know why.
*There was the waste of space weasel that I've talked about before who was equally involved in the original incident that led to my downfall, (but he shot his mouth off and left his own involvement in the incident out of it). Well soon after he had a major falling out with his best friend of years (the two are no longer talking) and then he watched his father die of cancer.
* There was an MD of a company I worked for who very shortly after he started the mobbing thing on me in a very aggressive way, was told he was surplus to requirements. It's funny, I saw him as he walked out the door for the last time and he didn't bother to try and mob me - must have had other things on his mind.
* There was another company I worked for where people there mobbed me and they've now all been told there will be no positions for them in the new company restructuring.
* And then there are those wonderful souls at the world's biggest pharmaceutical company based in east Kent. How much longer do you think they've got?
* I think the funniest one was a former big boss of mine I saw in a restaurant. Now this guy had been booted out of his important position years ago. He is now reduced to doing the odd bit of locum work here and there - counting tablets into bottles and sticking labels on. He started to do the gang stalking/ mobbing thing on me. As if I give a monkeys what this arm hole thinks. He's pathetic. Even his wife gave him the boot years ago after years of him messing around with other women. I bet he spends his evenings very lonely; drinking his cans of lager and eating his ready meals. And he thinks he could get at me?
I wonder if there are any others out there that have had a pop at me and they've suddenly been hit themselves. I wonder?
* The most obvious one is the squash player I've talked about before. He ended up in the slammer for some very serious and sick crimes.
* There was this chap, who I used to work with, who once when I was on a train, did the glaring bit at me. The real serious stares. The same chap then got an interview for a senior position where I was working. When he saw me he had to stifle a snigger and had to turn away. He got the job. I decided to leave the company. Around a month after this jerk had started his new senior job he was told he was going to be made redundant. You'd need a heart of stone not to laugh.
* There was a Head of Human Resources who was particularly unpleasant to me. A few weeks after I left the company he was marched off the premises by security guards. No one seems to know why.
*There was the waste of space weasel that I've talked about before who was equally involved in the original incident that led to my downfall, (but he shot his mouth off and left his own involvement in the incident out of it). Well soon after he had a major falling out with his best friend of years (the two are no longer talking) and then he watched his father die of cancer.
* There was an MD of a company I worked for who very shortly after he started the mobbing thing on me in a very aggressive way, was told he was surplus to requirements. It's funny, I saw him as he walked out the door for the last time and he didn't bother to try and mob me - must have had other things on his mind.
* There was another company I worked for where people there mobbed me and they've now all been told there will be no positions for them in the new company restructuring.
* And then there are those wonderful souls at the world's biggest pharmaceutical company based in east Kent. How much longer do you think they've got?
* I think the funniest one was a former big boss of mine I saw in a restaurant. Now this guy had been booted out of his important position years ago. He is now reduced to doing the odd bit of locum work here and there - counting tablets into bottles and sticking labels on. He started to do the gang stalking/ mobbing thing on me. As if I give a monkeys what this arm hole thinks. He's pathetic. Even his wife gave him the boot years ago after years of him messing around with other women. I bet he spends his evenings very lonely; drinking his cans of lager and eating his ready meals. And he thinks he could get at me?
I wonder if there are any others out there that have had a pop at me and they've suddenly been hit themselves. I wonder?
Sunday 2 September 2007
Going Postal
From time to time cases of people going berserk in the workplace surface. Sometimes these people go into their workplace with a gun and indiscriminately shoot a load of people before turning the gun on themselves. The official explanation is they went nuts. However, if you dig a little deeper, you often find that the shootings aren't that indiscriminate and that the person who has gone on the spree has been harassed and mobbed to breaking point.
This is quite well documented but not very well known. Now just think, if someone calls you into an office and tells you about evil things a person is said to have done and you are given the instructions to harass the target by giving stares etc. you, yourself are putting yourself at risk from possible retaliation from the target. The people asking you to do this harassment know this very well but they have no qualms about putting you in the firing line whilst they observe amused from a safe distance. And if the worst does happen and the target does lose it, you get shot and everyone else keeps sh tum and those that orchestrated it deny everything hiding behind their lawyers. Because you have been instructed not to tell a soul (not even your spouse) no one outside the circle asks questions because they all believe the official version of events.
So what I'm saying is, think carefully about the motives of someone that tries to persuade you to go along with something like this. Are they telling you because they like and trust you and want you to be in their little gang? Or are they USING you to do their dirty work. Knowing that if it goes belly up you will be the one that cops it.
This is quite well documented but not very well known. Now just think, if someone calls you into an office and tells you about evil things a person is said to have done and you are given the instructions to harass the target by giving stares etc. you, yourself are putting yourself at risk from possible retaliation from the target. The people asking you to do this harassment know this very well but they have no qualms about putting you in the firing line whilst they observe amused from a safe distance. And if the worst does happen and the target does lose it, you get shot and everyone else keeps sh tum and those that orchestrated it deny everything hiding behind their lawyers. Because you have been instructed not to tell a soul (not even your spouse) no one outside the circle asks questions because they all believe the official version of events.
So what I'm saying is, think carefully about the motives of someone that tries to persuade you to go along with something like this. Are they telling you because they like and trust you and want you to be in their little gang? Or are they USING you to do their dirty work. Knowing that if it goes belly up you will be the one that cops it.
Thursday 16 August 2007
Mobbing, Gangstalking and Gaslighting
Perpetrators discover a wrong doing of target. Usually a rumour reported to an influential person by someone who has a personal vendetta against the target or is jealous of the target for some reason. The target cannot be punished using the law e.g. Too long ago.
Investigation undertaken by perpetrators to confirm guilt of target. Done in secret. Informants/witnesses silenced. Investigation can involve illegal surveillance of target.
Decision made to punish target. Individuals in work place told of target’s wrong doing. Evidence shown proving undeniable guilt (evidence is cherry picked and “crime” exaggerated and added to to make people believe that the target will deserve everything they’re going to get.)
Over a period of several weeks/months, more and more people are involved. Some close to target but most will not have even spoken to target before. Those told will harass target by giving cold stares, sneers and muttering under breath.
Harassers are told not to mention what they know to anyone - probable threats to ruin them if they do. Harassers told to report any communications with target. For example, if target asks what is the problem, harasser will deny there is any problem and try to make out there is something wrong with the target. The harasser will record all details of interactions and pass back to those orchestrating the harassment. Once a few of these reports have been received, the harassers will then pass them on to authoritative source (e.g. Company doctor) with “concerns”over the target’s mental health. This can then be sent to the target’s own GP. The company doctor may be acting in all innocence and have no idea that he/she is being manipulated. It will be filed and will blot the target’s medical records forever (much more damaging than a criminal record.)
Overall goal of harassers is to destroy reputation of target by making them a figure of ridicule amongst family members, close friends and co-workers not “in” on the harassment. Target will suffer breakdown as a result of enormous stress resulting from the fact that no one will believe them. This will lead to suicide or serious physical illness. End result, death or very serious injury of the target with no trace back to the perpetrators. They will have gotten away with murder.
This type of thing is well documented on the web but very little in the way of proof is provided. Indeed, I believe some of the things reported on the web are a smoke screen written by perpetrators to make it appear that there are a load of paranoid head cases out there. The above may seem very clever and the perpetrators probably believe they are part of something very clever. The idea may be clever but it has taken centuries to develop this sort of harassment. It has been perfected by such groups as the STASI and the KKK. So if you are being harassed in this way, just remember that those doing it are no better than the KKK. The secret is to spot this harassment early on so you know what is going on straight away and don’t fall into the telling your doctor or anyone else where it can be documented and used against you. That is why it is difficult because no one in main stream media will report this ( I wonder why?). In terms of getting evidence. Witnesses are out of the question as they only pick on you when no one is watching. I would however direct you to the many web sites out there that sell spy-like devices. It will be easy to get your proof even if you only use it to show close family members what is going on. In terms of who is behind this; people in high places with a lot of power over people to keep them silenced, people who the mere mention of causes people to clam up with fear. I don’t need to mention the name do I?
In addition, the best thing to do (easy to give this advice I know and a lot more difficult to follow) is ignore the harassment. Don’t let them see that it is affecting you. Believe me this is the best thing to do. If you pretend nothing is bothering you then THEY will get very annoyed. Don’t mention it to anyone and carry on as if nothing was happening. Their actions will become even more extreme and so their actions will become easier to record and use as evidence.
Investigation undertaken by perpetrators to confirm guilt of target. Done in secret. Informants/witnesses silenced. Investigation can involve illegal surveillance of target.
Decision made to punish target. Individuals in work place told of target’s wrong doing. Evidence shown proving undeniable guilt (evidence is cherry picked and “crime” exaggerated and added to to make people believe that the target will deserve everything they’re going to get.)
Over a period of several weeks/months, more and more people are involved. Some close to target but most will not have even spoken to target before. Those told will harass target by giving cold stares, sneers and muttering under breath.
Harassers are told not to mention what they know to anyone - probable threats to ruin them if they do. Harassers told to report any communications with target. For example, if target asks what is the problem, harasser will deny there is any problem and try to make out there is something wrong with the target. The harasser will record all details of interactions and pass back to those orchestrating the harassment. Once a few of these reports have been received, the harassers will then pass them on to authoritative source (e.g. Company doctor) with “concerns”over the target’s mental health. This can then be sent to the target’s own GP. The company doctor may be acting in all innocence and have no idea that he/she is being manipulated. It will be filed and will blot the target’s medical records forever (much more damaging than a criminal record.)
Overall goal of harassers is to destroy reputation of target by making them a figure of ridicule amongst family members, close friends and co-workers not “in” on the harassment. Target will suffer breakdown as a result of enormous stress resulting from the fact that no one will believe them. This will lead to suicide or serious physical illness. End result, death or very serious injury of the target with no trace back to the perpetrators. They will have gotten away with murder.
This type of thing is well documented on the web but very little in the way of proof is provided. Indeed, I believe some of the things reported on the web are a smoke screen written by perpetrators to make it appear that there are a load of paranoid head cases out there. The above may seem very clever and the perpetrators probably believe they are part of something very clever. The idea may be clever but it has taken centuries to develop this sort of harassment. It has been perfected by such groups as the STASI and the KKK. So if you are being harassed in this way, just remember that those doing it are no better than the KKK. The secret is to spot this harassment early on so you know what is going on straight away and don’t fall into the telling your doctor or anyone else where it can be documented and used against you. That is why it is difficult because no one in main stream media will report this ( I wonder why?). In terms of getting evidence. Witnesses are out of the question as they only pick on you when no one is watching. I would however direct you to the many web sites out there that sell spy-like devices. It will be easy to get your proof even if you only use it to show close family members what is going on. In terms of who is behind this; people in high places with a lot of power over people to keep them silenced, people who the mere mention of causes people to clam up with fear. I don’t need to mention the name do I?
In addition, the best thing to do (easy to give this advice I know and a lot more difficult to follow) is ignore the harassment. Don’t let them see that it is affecting you. Believe me this is the best thing to do. If you pretend nothing is bothering you then THEY will get very annoyed. Don’t mention it to anyone and carry on as if nothing was happening. Their actions will become even more extreme and so their actions will become easier to record and use as evidence.
Saturday 11 August 2007
Waste of space
I have, in a previous post, talked about a certain guy who had no qualms at all about dropping me well and truely in it. During a recent holiday I started to think more about him and I think I've now got him well sussed. For any of you out there that know this character, you will immediately, I'm sure, recognise some of the stories I'm about to tell.
These are just a couple of examples of his behaviour. To be honest, I could go on with a lot more but these will serve for now:
He had a so-called friend (as you will see later, his friendships are rather one-sided), that went to football with him. When in a bar, some rival supporters started to pick on his friend - for no reason. Martin (his friend) then noticed how our hero slunk off into the distance leaving Martin to deal with these thugs on his own. Now you have to realise that he just walked off, not to get help but just walked off. After Martin had managed to get rid of these thugs, our hero returned. Our hero did not even mention the incident and treated it like nothing had happened. Now this is quite funny as he did almost the exact same thing to me. This time it was outside a night club (Vadims). He was in front of me and tried to push ahead in a queue, when I tried to follow him, a guy in the queue got annoyed and started to have a go at me, who he thought was doing the pushing. It was actually our hero. Our hero deliberately never turned his head when this was going on and never tried to help me at all but slunk off. When I met up with him he never mentioned it.
This is another example:
When I was young and stupid (now I'm old and not quite so stupid), a guy was making moves on my girlfriend. This annoyed me a bit and so I phoned this guy to explain that I was going out with this girl and would he please leave off. He didn't. So after discussing this with our hero we and I mean WE decided we would egg him. Now this was stupid, immature and all the rest of it. I know that. Our hero drives me to where the target is leaving college at 9 in the evening. I throw two eggs in the direction of him. They miss by miles. Anyway, our hero then drives me in his car and WE follow the target. Our hero slows down so I can get a good shot then he speeds away. I think I just about catch him on his leg, possibly. Now all this is done, pretty annoynmously (cowardly I know). But the very next day our hero is blabbing his mouth off to all and sundry about how I (note; not WE), egged him. Now if you to this day put this before him, he would deny all knowledge of any involvement. (He lives his life in a permanent state of denial - just look at his Bobby Charlton hair style.) However, just as with the other incident in an earlier post I have written about you have to ask the victim to confirm what I am saying. Ask RR what car pulled away from him that night. Was it a 1600 Sport Mk II Ford Escort, Orange? Now who else used to drive a highly distinctive car like that at that time?
Now to go onto his one-sided friendships. What I mean by this is that our hero is not able to form friends with people he would like to form friends with - they tend to have more senior positions and generally be more successful and of a higher social status. Therefore, throughout most of his career, our hero has tended to befriend those much younger than him. I, for example, started work when I was only 16 and I did not get on very well with others in the workplace as the others were generally much older and more mature. So when you are much younger and feeling a bit insecure in a place, you welcome someone older showing an interest in you. However, what our hero did to me, and I have seen him do it to countless others, was befriend me so that he could get me to do stupid things. I did do a lot of stupid things in my youth and I can guarantee that he was behind a lot of them - egging (sometimes literally) me on. He would then tell everyone about them behind my back and leave his own involvement out of it.
Another thing our hero is famous for is for pulling out of college courses. During his career he has pulled out of countless college courses. He eventually got himself in the position where the company he worked for would no longer sponsor any, thus putting any career progression at a standstill. His response to this was to encourage other, younger more impressionable colleagues to also, "Jack it in," as he used to urge them to do. I can give you a list of people he has said this to over the years.
Our hero is the best example I know of the term, "Waste of Space."
These are just a couple of examples of his behaviour. To be honest, I could go on with a lot more but these will serve for now:
He had a so-called friend (as you will see later, his friendships are rather one-sided), that went to football with him. When in a bar, some rival supporters started to pick on his friend - for no reason. Martin (his friend) then noticed how our hero slunk off into the distance leaving Martin to deal with these thugs on his own. Now you have to realise that he just walked off, not to get help but just walked off. After Martin had managed to get rid of these thugs, our hero returned. Our hero did not even mention the incident and treated it like nothing had happened. Now this is quite funny as he did almost the exact same thing to me. This time it was outside a night club (Vadims). He was in front of me and tried to push ahead in a queue, when I tried to follow him, a guy in the queue got annoyed and started to have a go at me, who he thought was doing the pushing. It was actually our hero. Our hero deliberately never turned his head when this was going on and never tried to help me at all but slunk off. When I met up with him he never mentioned it.
This is another example:
When I was young and stupid (now I'm old and not quite so stupid), a guy was making moves on my girlfriend. This annoyed me a bit and so I phoned this guy to explain that I was going out with this girl and would he please leave off. He didn't. So after discussing this with our hero we and I mean WE decided we would egg him. Now this was stupid, immature and all the rest of it. I know that. Our hero drives me to where the target is leaving college at 9 in the evening. I throw two eggs in the direction of him. They miss by miles. Anyway, our hero then drives me in his car and WE follow the target. Our hero slows down so I can get a good shot then he speeds away. I think I just about catch him on his leg, possibly. Now all this is done, pretty annoynmously (cowardly I know). But the very next day our hero is blabbing his mouth off to all and sundry about how I (note; not WE), egged him. Now if you to this day put this before him, he would deny all knowledge of any involvement. (He lives his life in a permanent state of denial - just look at his Bobby Charlton hair style.) However, just as with the other incident in an earlier post I have written about you have to ask the victim to confirm what I am saying. Ask RR what car pulled away from him that night. Was it a 1600 Sport Mk II Ford Escort, Orange? Now who else used to drive a highly distinctive car like that at that time?
Now to go onto his one-sided friendships. What I mean by this is that our hero is not able to form friends with people he would like to form friends with - they tend to have more senior positions and generally be more successful and of a higher social status. Therefore, throughout most of his career, our hero has tended to befriend those much younger than him. I, for example, started work when I was only 16 and I did not get on very well with others in the workplace as the others were generally much older and more mature. So when you are much younger and feeling a bit insecure in a place, you welcome someone older showing an interest in you. However, what our hero did to me, and I have seen him do it to countless others, was befriend me so that he could get me to do stupid things. I did do a lot of stupid things in my youth and I can guarantee that he was behind a lot of them - egging (sometimes literally) me on. He would then tell everyone about them behind my back and leave his own involvement out of it.
Another thing our hero is famous for is for pulling out of college courses. During his career he has pulled out of countless college courses. He eventually got himself in the position where the company he worked for would no longer sponsor any, thus putting any career progression at a standstill. His response to this was to encourage other, younger more impressionable colleagues to also, "Jack it in," as he used to urge them to do. I can give you a list of people he has said this to over the years.
Our hero is the best example I know of the term, "Waste of Space."
Wednesday 25 July 2007
Workplace closure
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I heard recently that a former workplace of mine is about to close. Someone text me with the news saying I would be pleased to learn that it was going to close. This was not true however. Even though some people at that company have been very mean to me in the past, I do not wish them ill. It is true I don't actually want anything to do with some of them but I don't wish anything bad on them. It is also true that I would like some of them to face trial by jury for what they have done. They have broken the law and feel that their cause is morally correct so it is OK for them to break the law. In theory, the law should apply to all and no one should be able to escape justice. I do hope one day they will have to face up to their actions. I would love to hear their explanations of why they did what they did.
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I heard recently that a former workplace of mine is about to close. Someone text me with the news saying I would be pleased to learn that it was going to close. This was not true however. Even though some people at that company have been very mean to me in the past, I do not wish them ill. It is true I don't actually want anything to do with some of them but I don't wish anything bad on them. It is also true that I would like some of them to face trial by jury for what they have done. They have broken the law and feel that their cause is morally correct so it is OK for them to break the law. In theory, the law should apply to all and no one should be able to escape justice. I do hope one day they will have to face up to their actions. I would love to hear their explanations of why they did what they did.
Saturday 5 May 2007
Squash players
There was someone on the telly years ago who I remembered saying something like, "...you have just laughed at me and made fun of me. The thing that you have done to me will happen to you. Someone will one day mock you in the same way." Now it is a nice thought to think that that kind of poetic justice exists but when you think about it rationally, it can't.....or can it?
There was a case recently at Bristol Crown Court where a man (PK) was sentenced to 9 months imprisonment. I will not go into the sordid details of the crime of this seedy individual only to say he has now been banned from ever working with children.
Now I have been treated very badly by a lot of people because someone is spreading a load of half truths about me (see my first posting). I suspect if you trace the story that is going around about me back to its source, you will come to the above individual. I believe as a result of him telling a story about me (that I believe must have been grossly exaggerated), I have had to face a barrage of abuse. I wonder if he is now experiencing the same thing I had to face? The hostile stares, the abuse, the ostracizing? Mmmm.
There was a case recently at Bristol Crown Court where a man (PK) was sentenced to 9 months imprisonment. I will not go into the sordid details of the crime of this seedy individual only to say he has now been banned from ever working with children.
Now I have been treated very badly by a lot of people because someone is spreading a load of half truths about me (see my first posting). I suspect if you trace the story that is going around about me back to its source, you will come to the above individual. I believe as a result of him telling a story about me (that I believe must have been grossly exaggerated), I have had to face a barrage of abuse. I wonder if he is now experiencing the same thing I had to face? The hostile stares, the abuse, the ostracizing? Mmmm.
Friday 13 April 2007
Milgram experiment
In many ways I don't know why I'm bothering to write this. It is a lovely day and I could be riding my bike or something. However, I find it quite therapeutic; writing something that will probably be never read by anyone but at least I will have put my thoughts and feelings down in a form that is reasonably permanent and can be accessed anywhere in the world.
As some of you who read this may know I have been the victim of gang stalking and mobbing. This has been due to vigilante types trying to punish me for what they see (or have been told is an unforgivable sin.) I have written my side of events in a previous entry so I've nothing more to say in my defense; only that I'm not as 100% guilty as some may think but not 100% innocent either. Anyway, it was over 20 years ago - a one off incident done in my youth that has been blown out of all proportion and no one was harmed.
I have read much about gang stalking and mobbing. There are things that even I find difficult to believe like being attacked with microwaves etc. I would not completely discount it though. I think before discounting it you have to ask, "Is it physically/practically possible?" If the answer is yes then it is quite possible it is going on. I believe we like to think of ourselves as decent human beings and I think for the most part we are, or at least, try to be. However, as I have discovered, even people you consider to be fair and nice people are capable of monstrous things. I think for this to occur there must be a few things that need to happen. First, I think to make a decent person monstrous, you have to make them believe that the person you are targeting deserves everything they are going to get. This can be drummed up in a number of ways. You can completely fabricate a story about them that is a complete lie but convincing because it comes from an authoritative source - Head of a company, your boss, police etc. There is the, "They wouldn't make something like that up." Or ,"They wouldn't go to all that trouble unless it was true." Alternatively, there is the thing where people are told a story with an element of truth and a series of facts/evidence can then be collected together that corroborate the story and this can be presented as fact without the target/victim being able to give their story. You often see this is in trial by media cases - look at the lady witness that was shot in the Hanratty case and the hell she was put through. In my own case I am certain it was the latter. I also think it may have been added to.
I would like to see an experiment into human behaviour conducted, similar to the Milgram experiment, where workers of an individual are told that the individual has committed an unforgivable sin - by the Head of a company and observe the workers behaviour to this target. If the target (who is in on the experiment) starts to feign an illness - time off work with stress etc. will the perpetrators continue with their harassment? At what point will they stop? Will they carry on, as I suspect they will, until the target is eliminated? Any researchers/academics out their willing to give it a go? Go on, find out about the darker side of human nature.
As some of you who read this may know I have been the victim of gang stalking and mobbing. This has been due to vigilante types trying to punish me for what they see (or have been told is an unforgivable sin.) I have written my side of events in a previous entry so I've nothing more to say in my defense; only that I'm not as 100% guilty as some may think but not 100% innocent either. Anyway, it was over 20 years ago - a one off incident done in my youth that has been blown out of all proportion and no one was harmed.
I have read much about gang stalking and mobbing. There are things that even I find difficult to believe like being attacked with microwaves etc. I would not completely discount it though. I think before discounting it you have to ask, "Is it physically/practically possible?" If the answer is yes then it is quite possible it is going on. I believe we like to think of ourselves as decent human beings and I think for the most part we are, or at least, try to be. However, as I have discovered, even people you consider to be fair and nice people are capable of monstrous things. I think for this to occur there must be a few things that need to happen. First, I think to make a decent person monstrous, you have to make them believe that the person you are targeting deserves everything they are going to get. This can be drummed up in a number of ways. You can completely fabricate a story about them that is a complete lie but convincing because it comes from an authoritative source - Head of a company, your boss, police etc. There is the, "They wouldn't make something like that up." Or ,"They wouldn't go to all that trouble unless it was true." Alternatively, there is the thing where people are told a story with an element of truth and a series of facts/evidence can then be collected together that corroborate the story and this can be presented as fact without the target/victim being able to give their story. You often see this is in trial by media cases - look at the lady witness that was shot in the Hanratty case and the hell she was put through. In my own case I am certain it was the latter. I also think it may have been added to.
I would like to see an experiment into human behaviour conducted, similar to the Milgram experiment, where workers of an individual are told that the individual has committed an unforgivable sin - by the Head of a company and observe the workers behaviour to this target. If the target (who is in on the experiment) starts to feign an illness - time off work with stress etc. will the perpetrators continue with their harassment? At what point will they stop? Will they carry on, as I suspect they will, until the target is eliminated? Any researchers/academics out their willing to give it a go? Go on, find out about the darker side of human nature.
Tuesday 23 January 2007
Bert Stewart
Just a message to those that know who they are and who know who I am. If you have ever read the children’s book, The True Story of The Three Little Pigs, then this is how this feels writing this.
It does seem ridiculous to me that I am having to justify and explain something that happened over 20 years ago in my youth but I do. We live in a crazy world. One of the few things I have been gifted with however is a very, very good memory. Unfortunately, very few others seem to be blessed with this talent. I can recount the events that happened back on that day very accurately and I can do it better than anyone else can because I know precisely what I was thinking on that day – no one else knows this.
I have made attempts to explain this before to others, maybe some of you. I know you haven’t believed me and that’s probably because I was always trying to protect some others as well as myself. It is always been my view that you don’t drop others in it. It is a shame a certain other person did not think this way. Also, since this incident I have felt an enormous amount of guilt. Why? Well mainly because it was so out of character. I mean I’m the sort of person that, in the days before mobile phones, when I needed to make the odd personal phone call I would go to the pay phone at work and use that. Also, at work, I have never once tried to cover up a mistake I have made. Even in cases when I could have let mistakes I have made be hidden, I have always come clean and owned up.
As a result I have always felt bad about the incident with “that item”. I will go exactly through what happened. I am prepared to undergo any polygraph testing on this. I wonder if any others who say it didn’t happen like this would be prepared to undergo such testing?
It was coming up to my last days with the company. I was going to leave to start another job elsewhere so I was in a somewhat de-mob happy mood. A group of us were in the old store room, where if anyone remembers, was full of junk. I saw an old vacuum pump. I said casually, I could do with that for my air brushing. Now if any of you know anything about air brushing, you will know that a simple vacuum pump is no good for air brushing. Aside from the fact that you have the difficulty of how you connect the brush to the pump you also need to have a reservoir and a pressure cut off switch. Anyway, two others that were there said something like, well why don’t you take it out then? And encouraged me to take it. Saying it was a heap of junk that would never be used (which it was). I thought about it and I suppose because I was in a pretty daft mood anyway thought, “Well what if I got someone to take it out for me as a joke?” It is difficult to explain what went on in those days only to say the working environment was very different to how it is now. We were young lads constantly messing around and things from time to time went too far – as in this case. I spoke to a certain KL and asked what he thought. He then went up to KM and asked him if he could take it out – saying it was someone else’s and they would pick it up later. So there you are, KL asked KM to take it out – FACT. Ask KM. I have tried my best to contact KM myself – I have tried to look him up on the electoral role and I have tried to contact him via Friend Reunited. No success. A few years ago when I spoke to KL about this and KL suddenly didn’t know what I was talking about (it’s a shame he couldn't remember all about it when he shot his mouth off in the bar that night), when I suggested we meet with KM to talk about it as I'm sure he would remember, KL was very reluctant to do this– I wonder why?
I handed KM the item and he took it out lunch time when he had half a day’s holiday. Now, KL obviously felt bad about this and when KM went out to leave at lunch time, KL went after him. I thought he was going to tell him not to take it but he actually just made sure he wasn’t stopped. If he was stopped I don’t know what KL would have done. Knowing him to be the coward he is, he would of no doubt just run off and denied everything. All I can say is, had KM been caught taking it out, I would have come forward and explained. I don’t suppose there is any way I could prove that but I would have. So there you have it. After work, KL and myself went to pick up the item from KM's house – KL drove me there. Now I felt bad about this. I felt bad because I’d put KM at risk (although it wasn’t just me). I also felt bad about the property I had taken. I decided I would take it back the next week – which as I recall was my last week in the place anyway.
I never did get around to taking it back. It was rather a big item and I wondered how I could get it back and since I was leaving the company anyway I didn’t bother. Also, I cannot emphasise how worthless this item was. It was not like I could make use of it or I could sell it. I left the company.
After this KL built up a friendship (of sorts) with a chap called PT. They used to meet after playing football and chat over drinks. Now you have to remember I have left the company at this time. KL loved and probably still loves to tell outrageous stories about people. Now I‘ve done some pretty mad things – I jumped out of a window at a party once when I was in bed with a girl ( when I thought a rather large rugby playing chap was just about to biff me), I got a lady on reception at work to put out some prank tannoy calls (all evil stuff yeah?), I once took a detour across some school fields when I was driving someone from work home. Now KL is one of life’s spectators. Anyone who knows him will know that he will very often not do anything himself (as he is a coward) but he will encourage others to do things. Then he will gladly tell others about it to make him look good (or others bad). I think of it as living his life by proxy. So KL was desperately trying to get on the good side of PT (anyone who knows KL will know he has always tried hard to improve his social status – with little effect it might be added). KL loved to tell the outrageous stories, but conveniently, left his involvement out of them; PT loved to hear the stories.
Now the strange thing is, I came back to work at this company about 18 months later – where I went didn’t work out and so I came back. I worked there for another 6 years I think. All the time I had this “item” in my shed. Believe it or not, right up until the time I left I had planned to take back the item. I never got around to it and that is the truth – you know how it is when you keep meaning to do something but there is no pressing urgency. It stayed with us in the shed. We moved house, several times, and it stayed. My wife used it as a door stop for the shed. So here we are, I left the company again. If I might say I worked very hard whilst I was there. Also, I was interested to see when I returned there about ten years later that my diffusion cells that I got made to my own design when I did my MSc, were still there along with my Perspex clamps – that I bought myself and my dad made in his shed. In fact there were many things there I noticed, still being used, that I had spent time making in my own time or had bought myself and never claimed the money back – ironic don’t you think?
Anyway, I go off and work for other companies – If I might say though I was never that happy or settled in this line of work. There was something about all those companies I never liked – mostly of individuals with a superiority complex which seems to be endemic in this line of work. I went back to work at this place again (3rd time lucky) this time the company as we know had changed names. I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you the rest of the story. There is however something I’d like to say. It has been interesting the way things have happened. I know for a fact that most people must have been told a different version of the story to what happened – that is natural – it something that is being told about 5th or 6th hand after a period of about 20 years – things are bound to get added to etc. Also, you must think to yourself the people that want to “get” me will do anything and say anything to get you on their side. They will lie – believe me if they are prepared to lie to my doctor in writing they are prepared to do anything. So who really are the bad guys in this? Me, for doing a single, very stupid thing, 20 years ago in my youth which I have always regretted? Or them for effectively trying everything they can to ruin my life and perhaps drive me to suicide (which will never happen by the way)? Mmmm.
I know for a lot of you the actual incident is irrelevant. You like the fact that you can join in with this and put the boot in and it is sanctioned from above – you are being allowed to be bullies and it is condoned by your superiors so it is OK. You are no different to the Germans that put people in gas chambers. They probably derived glee from it just as you have but were told by their superiors that this was the right thing. Watching Saddam get hung with others jeering and taunting him reminds me of you lot. Watching those people baying for Jade Goody’s blood after she was evicted from Big Brother. It is exactly the same thing; you are part of a mob with mob mentality.
It does seem ridiculous to me that I am having to justify and explain something that happened over 20 years ago in my youth but I do. We live in a crazy world. One of the few things I have been gifted with however is a very, very good memory. Unfortunately, very few others seem to be blessed with this talent. I can recount the events that happened back on that day very accurately and I can do it better than anyone else can because I know precisely what I was thinking on that day – no one else knows this.
I have made attempts to explain this before to others, maybe some of you. I know you haven’t believed me and that’s probably because I was always trying to protect some others as well as myself. It is always been my view that you don’t drop others in it. It is a shame a certain other person did not think this way. Also, since this incident I have felt an enormous amount of guilt. Why? Well mainly because it was so out of character. I mean I’m the sort of person that, in the days before mobile phones, when I needed to make the odd personal phone call I would go to the pay phone at work and use that. Also, at work, I have never once tried to cover up a mistake I have made. Even in cases when I could have let mistakes I have made be hidden, I have always come clean and owned up.
As a result I have always felt bad about the incident with “that item”. I will go exactly through what happened. I am prepared to undergo any polygraph testing on this. I wonder if any others who say it didn’t happen like this would be prepared to undergo such testing?
It was coming up to my last days with the company. I was going to leave to start another job elsewhere so I was in a somewhat de-mob happy mood. A group of us were in the old store room, where if anyone remembers, was full of junk. I saw an old vacuum pump. I said casually, I could do with that for my air brushing. Now if any of you know anything about air brushing, you will know that a simple vacuum pump is no good for air brushing. Aside from the fact that you have the difficulty of how you connect the brush to the pump you also need to have a reservoir and a pressure cut off switch. Anyway, two others that were there said something like, well why don’t you take it out then? And encouraged me to take it. Saying it was a heap of junk that would never be used (which it was). I thought about it and I suppose because I was in a pretty daft mood anyway thought, “Well what if I got someone to take it out for me as a joke?” It is difficult to explain what went on in those days only to say the working environment was very different to how it is now. We were young lads constantly messing around and things from time to time went too far – as in this case. I spoke to a certain KL and asked what he thought. He then went up to KM and asked him if he could take it out – saying it was someone else’s and they would pick it up later. So there you are, KL asked KM to take it out – FACT. Ask KM. I have tried my best to contact KM myself – I have tried to look him up on the electoral role and I have tried to contact him via Friend Reunited. No success. A few years ago when I spoke to KL about this and KL suddenly didn’t know what I was talking about (it’s a shame he couldn't remember all about it when he shot his mouth off in the bar that night), when I suggested we meet with KM to talk about it as I'm sure he would remember, KL was very reluctant to do this– I wonder why?
I handed KM the item and he took it out lunch time when he had half a day’s holiday. Now, KL obviously felt bad about this and when KM went out to leave at lunch time, KL went after him. I thought he was going to tell him not to take it but he actually just made sure he wasn’t stopped. If he was stopped I don’t know what KL would have done. Knowing him to be the coward he is, he would of no doubt just run off and denied everything. All I can say is, had KM been caught taking it out, I would have come forward and explained. I don’t suppose there is any way I could prove that but I would have. So there you have it. After work, KL and myself went to pick up the item from KM's house – KL drove me there. Now I felt bad about this. I felt bad because I’d put KM at risk (although it wasn’t just me). I also felt bad about the property I had taken. I decided I would take it back the next week – which as I recall was my last week in the place anyway.
I never did get around to taking it back. It was rather a big item and I wondered how I could get it back and since I was leaving the company anyway I didn’t bother. Also, I cannot emphasise how worthless this item was. It was not like I could make use of it or I could sell it. I left the company.
After this KL built up a friendship (of sorts) with a chap called PT. They used to meet after playing football and chat over drinks. Now you have to remember I have left the company at this time. KL loved and probably still loves to tell outrageous stories about people. Now I‘ve done some pretty mad things – I jumped out of a window at a party once when I was in bed with a girl ( when I thought a rather large rugby playing chap was just about to biff me), I got a lady on reception at work to put out some prank tannoy calls (all evil stuff yeah?), I once took a detour across some school fields when I was driving someone from work home. Now KL is one of life’s spectators. Anyone who knows him will know that he will very often not do anything himself (as he is a coward) but he will encourage others to do things. Then he will gladly tell others about it to make him look good (or others bad). I think of it as living his life by proxy. So KL was desperately trying to get on the good side of PT (anyone who knows KL will know he has always tried hard to improve his social status – with little effect it might be added). KL loved to tell the outrageous stories, but conveniently, left his involvement out of them; PT loved to hear the stories.
Now the strange thing is, I came back to work at this company about 18 months later – where I went didn’t work out and so I came back. I worked there for another 6 years I think. All the time I had this “item” in my shed. Believe it or not, right up until the time I left I had planned to take back the item. I never got around to it and that is the truth – you know how it is when you keep meaning to do something but there is no pressing urgency. It stayed with us in the shed. We moved house, several times, and it stayed. My wife used it as a door stop for the shed. So here we are, I left the company again. If I might say I worked very hard whilst I was there. Also, I was interested to see when I returned there about ten years later that my diffusion cells that I got made to my own design when I did my MSc, were still there along with my Perspex clamps – that I bought myself and my dad made in his shed. In fact there were many things there I noticed, still being used, that I had spent time making in my own time or had bought myself and never claimed the money back – ironic don’t you think?
Anyway, I go off and work for other companies – If I might say though I was never that happy or settled in this line of work. There was something about all those companies I never liked – mostly of individuals with a superiority complex which seems to be endemic in this line of work. I went back to work at this place again (3rd time lucky) this time the company as we know had changed names. I’m sure you don’t need me to tell you the rest of the story. There is however something I’d like to say. It has been interesting the way things have happened. I know for a fact that most people must have been told a different version of the story to what happened – that is natural – it something that is being told about 5th or 6th hand after a period of about 20 years – things are bound to get added to etc. Also, you must think to yourself the people that want to “get” me will do anything and say anything to get you on their side. They will lie – believe me if they are prepared to lie to my doctor in writing they are prepared to do anything. So who really are the bad guys in this? Me, for doing a single, very stupid thing, 20 years ago in my youth which I have always regretted? Or them for effectively trying everything they can to ruin my life and perhaps drive me to suicide (which will never happen by the way)? Mmmm.
I know for a lot of you the actual incident is irrelevant. You like the fact that you can join in with this and put the boot in and it is sanctioned from above – you are being allowed to be bullies and it is condoned by your superiors so it is OK. You are no different to the Germans that put people in gas chambers. They probably derived glee from it just as you have but were told by their superiors that this was the right thing. Watching Saddam get hung with others jeering and taunting him reminds me of you lot. Watching those people baying for Jade Goody’s blood after she was evicted from Big Brother. It is exactly the same thing; you are part of a mob with mob mentality.
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